By Your Side | Tenth Avenue North

How is life right now?

There are two cats in the same room as me that don’t like each other. One is scared and the other is jealous. Yet they are both here, existing quietly, neither making a move, both seemingly satisfied, though I know both are not. Perhaps that’s like my life right now. Not quite the scared/jealous emotions but I feel like I have all these emotions sitting together in a room, and yet none of them will move/change.

I feel anxious. I feel patient. happy. lonely. content. under-pressure. ready for change. wanting to move. knowing I must stay.

What a mess.

Besides that, I have an overwhelming desire for my friends to fall in love with Jesus. I have this picture in my mind of Jesus yelling, “I love you!” with a passionate cry, yearning, desiring them, and they just keep walking by. The song, “By Your Side” by Tenth Avenue North shows exactly what I mean. The last few lines, I can just picture God crying out in desperation how much He loves us and wants us to know how deeply He loves us. I know He desires them so much and I wish I could show them, just turn them around and let them “lift up their face[s]” to see every good and perfect thing that God has for them.

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don’t turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I’m not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I’ll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don’t fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world’s sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I’ll never let you go


One thought on “By Your Side | Tenth Avenue North

  1. haha, somehow, I feel like I know what you are feeling when you say that you are “wanting to move, knowing you must stay.”

    Right now, I am quite the opposite…knowing I must move, wanting to stay ::sigh::


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